I feel like I am sufficating

I still can't breathe. Sorry to complain so much.  I have an appointment with a specialist tomorrow.  I have almost gone to the ER like twice now.  I have a upper respiratory infection so that does not help.  If the doctor will not do surgery tomorrow I am getting my mom to take me to the ER..  We called two doctors last night.  We called the doctor I am going to see tomorrow  and they said he will not do anything until he sees me.  Since I am not his patient.  They said go the ER.  The doctor has an answering service and that is who answered the phone.  My mom has slept with me the past three days.  We were up all last night trying to decide whether or not to take me to the ER.  So if this doctor will not do emergency surgery tomorrow I am going to the ER,  If he says we need to schedule it I will yell at him because I am getting to the end of being able to deal with this.  I just hope it's scar tissue in my throat.  If it's not them then I don't want to go on.  This awful.  I don't want to spend the rest of my life with this problem.  I am going to the ER for sure if the Doctor acts like it's no big deal that I can't breathe and tries to schedule the surgery.  I will go to Piedmont, Grady, or Macon Medical Center.  This is ridiculous that they have not gone and looked down my throat.  I have scar tissue fro m the Ventilator and the Trach.  I just thought I was done with going through life threatening  health problems.  So just please pay that they fix it tomorrow.