Wednesday, November 24, 2010
My brain works slower than it used to
I hate the way my brain works slower now. It takes me longer to think of stuff now. I put my foot in my mouth a lot more now. I tend to so whatever comes to mind on accident. I find myself apologizing more now. I feel like a retard now. I try to act normal but I know that I am not. I just hope I am normal again. I feel like i will have breathing and brain problems for now on. I hate the way I can not do the things I used to. For example, I am making a turkey cake for Thanksgiving and of course I can not do it myself. I have to get my mother to help me ice the cake. But I never could Ice a cake before. I want to open a bakery one day but that probably won't happen because I suck at making cakes. I know that I am being negative today I'm just tired of not being able to do the things I used to. I'm fine with no contact sports and no amusement parks. I never did those things before so its not a big deal. I just hate not being able to go on long trips anymore with my family. I really want to go to Washington D.C. this year for the snow. But if the plate is in I can go. But I don't expect the plate to be put in for a while. I not expecting anything anytime soon because I know it will be a while. I know I should be used to being treated like a fragile flower because that is how it was when I was in the hospital. But it really sucks now that I am home. When I was in the hospital I did not mind it. I knew that how thy have to treat all their patients. I just hate being treated like something that might break if everyone does not walk on eggshells. I miss being an actual adult. I having a job. I miss going to school. I fell as if I was kidnapped out of my life.
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I love you!!!!
I know how you feel. I also have a TBI, and finally started writing about it in December, almost a year after my skull fracture and concussion. I'm also just now starting to connect with other TBI survivors, so I look forward to getting to know you through your posts. I hope you'll check mine out, too: http://fractured-myheadinjuryjournal.blogspot.com/. I'm trying to make it a community of both fellow survivors, family members, and people who want to know more about what dealing with a head/brain injury is like.
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