Surgery, Sinus Infections, and STAPH

     So I know its been a while.  I had my surgery on May 10,2011.  The surgery went very well.  I didn't have any problems from it.  I am doing really well since then.  Its weird to feel my head now and it to be solid instead of soft.  I had to beg all the doctors and nurses not to shave to much of my hair off.  When I first had my accident, they shaved my whole left side of my head.  So I begged with them not to shaved to much with the wedding coming up.  They all were very nice because they shaved just what they needed too.  I understand why they shaved so much off to begin with because they did not know where the damage was. All they knew was that it was on the left side.  I have gotten sick since my surgery.
    I had a sinus infection last week.  They had to give me a strong antibiotic because of my history with STAPH.  Even know, I do not have  it anymore I still have a history of it.  I have had to stay out of the sun because the medicine had sulfur in it.  I have not felt that bad since I woke in the hospital.  I have the same thing in common with my favorite  comic book character.  Rick from The Walking Dead.  He woke up from a coma in the hospital.    
    Other than that I have been really good.  Everything is starting to fall into place.  I start school again in August.  I am getting excited more and more each day.  Also, I am driving again.  I drove on the interstate for the first time since I had to stop driving.  I did really good. I only got a little bit nervous.  I used to get nervous when the semis went by and it was the same thing now.  I am still driving with supervision but I will be able to drive to school in August by myself.  At first, I begged my parents to drive me everywhere so I would not have to drive.  But now I am glad I can drive again.  It will be nice to be independent again.  I have gotten used to be dependent on everyone but it will be nice to be independent again.  But I enjoyed being a kid I guess that's why I have been good with relying on everyone.  It takes be back to being a kid.
     I have been busy planning the wedding too.  I am doing a lot of the work my self.  I really injury doing Arts and Crafts is why I enjoy doing the activities myself.  I have a lot done and just a little bit left to do.  I am getting excited the closer it gets.
     I have watch some new t.v. series also.  I started watching Prison Break.  I love the show.  It really is a good show.  I like watching prison shows because Nick works at a prison and it gives me an insight at what he does.  I really like watching the Disney channel now.  I used to love it when I was a kid.  It takes me back to being a kid again.  They actually have a lot of good clean shows.  So I am going to sign out for now.  I am going to start posting more.  My surgery had me kinda of out of it after all of it.  I promise to post twice a month.  That is something I can keep up.  Good night Everyone!

Surgery

I finally have a surgery date.  May 10th. Next Tuesday.  I am so glad to get it done.  Its taken almost a year just to get the plate put in.  I still don't understand why they didn't put it in to begin with.  I am so tired of sitting at home all the time.  I am literally bored to death.  I am so tired of being here.  I have so many things I want to do.  I want to get out of this state.  I wish I could move to a tropical place.  I guess I am stuck here till I go back to work.  I can't wait to go back to work, school, and normal activities.  I want to be able to drive again too.  And not have to rely on others to take me places.  I am very grateful that I have had people to take me all the places I have needed to go.  I am glad that my family, Nick, and my friends have put up with me while going through all this.  I am just ready to start working on my bucket list.  I want to travel the world and have children and all that.  So I am finally glad that I can start living my life again.  Once I get the plate on I can move on with my life.  I will not be on house arrest anymore either.  I just have to get through this surgery.  I am not nervous about this surgery.  I guess because I have has so many surgeries now I have gotten used to it.  I will be freed finally from the cage of my brain injury Tuesday!

Fall Wedding

     So I really have not been up to anything.  I sit at home all the time now.  So I just find things to keep me busy.  You know that saying "idol hands are the devils playground."  So I always try to keep busy.  I am starting to study for the GACE.  I figure I will need a couple of times of taking the test now.  I might even pass it on the first try.  That might be true for the General Edu, because the first GACE test I took was easy and it is about the same stuff with some new stuff.  So we will have to see. 
     I am making a list everyday now to make sure I get everything done.  I have so much I need to be working on, I need to make list to remind me what I need to get done.  I am enjoying spending all the time with the cats.  I am going to miss it when I can't spend a lot of time with them.  I really love spending time with my cats.  I especially love spending time with Polka Dot, Salem, and Felix.  Those are my  three favorite boys.  They love spending time with me too I think.  They act like it too.
     So we have finally set a date.  October 1st this year.  I know it is a year early but it really is not really that early because we were planning this year before the accident.  I am really excited.  Nick is really excited too.  So I have a lot to get done.  I have 6 more months to go.  So I have a lot to do before then.  I already had a lot of stuff done before we decided on a date.  We decided this year because of the year I have had.  It has been a rough year  for us.  Thankfully it keeps getting better.  I have one more surgery to go then I out of the clear for all of the surgeries.  So it will be a good ending for the year.  After the rough couple of years its been so it will be a good ending to the year.     
 

Its been a long time

So I would be graduating in 6 weeks but I will not be because of my bad luck.  But instead I am on house arrest still.  I can't do anything because I still don't have a plate in.  I am still waiting to hear from SSI.  I probably won't get it because I am not retarded enough.  The truth is that the government does not want anyone getting it because its more money they have to give away.  Its really screwed up the way the government works.  They don't want to help anyone.  So if you get disables you can count on the government not wanting to help.  They want a one cent tax to help build whatever they think they need but when someone gets disabled they come up with an excuse for you not to get it.  I wish I could go into politics because I would change a lot of that.  I am just one person who was disabled and see how it has effected me.  Imagine all the people that get disabled for life not just temporary disabled.  They can never work or do anything.  I will be able to go back to school in August and go back to work next August if I can get a job.  So its retarded how our government works.  The president and all the famous politicians can go on expensive vacations and I am stuck not being able to pay my medical bill.  Something is not right with that picture.  So hopefully they will give me an answer soon and if I don't get it I can go back to work.  Maybe I can be a stripper to pay for college.  Really I would never do that.  That is just gross.  But I would love to go back to my office job.  I miss the job and the people.  I miss school too.  I am so tired of sitting at home all the time.  So we are looking at late April to have the plate put in.  So I have 2 more months left of house arrest. And I will be able to get out of the house again.   And I can go back to work if I can't get SSI.  Which I won't probably get.  If I do go back to work its going to be difficult because there are so many things I can't do.  So I will be stuck in a office room away from the patients.  So hopefully things will look up for me after all this.  Hopefully I will have good luck after all this for the rest of my life.

Since my Birthday

Everything has been good since my birthday. I am feeling more and more like myself. My brain has clicked even more this week. I meet a girl down the road from me. She has a brain injury also. She had her accident in September. Her accident was 2 months after mine. She is doing good for the time period. It was nice to meet someone who went through all the things I went through. She is only a year younger than me. She used to go to Pike in Elementary school. I am just glad to have meet someone that knows what I am going through that lives down the road from me. I finally found a place for the wedding. I want to have the ceremony at a church and the reception at a restaurant near our house. It's in Williamson so it is very close. I might have figured out which bridesmaids dresses I like the best. If I go with David's Bridal all my bridesmaids get $20 off. I found a wedding dress but I want to find a cheaper one. That is about all I have been up too. I am really enjoying having all this time off. I am enjoying the warm weather too. I want spring and summer to be here so I can enjoy the sun.

I know its been a while

I know its been a while since I posted. I get angry a lot because of people and situations.  I do not want to post when I am angry because I know I will get in trouble for posting things about other people.  That is why I have not blogged in a while.  I do not want to blog angry.  So I just do not blog.  I have been busy a lot of days too.  I really have not been up to much. I am counting the days the away till I can go back to school.  I have two more months till I find out if I get SSI. If I do not get it I am going back to work because I have to save up for a car and the wedding.  I am getting cabin fever being stuck in the house.  The doctor first said I did not need a plate because the place was so small.  But then they said I needed one.  So I do not think the doctors even know.  I cannot go back to school yet anyway. I have to wait till August to finish up the program.  So I could not go back yet anyway.  Its going to be stressful so When I go back because I have to take five classes and 100 hours in a school.  So I wish they would let me take some of the easy classes now but I know they cannot make a change for one person.  Then everybody would want then to change something for them.  So hopefully they will let me take a few easy classes this summer while they are teaching this summer.  I am talking about a computer class or something like that.  Just something to get my feet wet before I take a plunge into all the classes and hours at once.   I just hate being stuck at home.  I am just glad I have my cats. They have become my friends that I get to spend a lot of time with.  They really are a lot of company.  They  talk, play, sleep, eat all day.  When I say talk I mean they meow all day long.  When they meow back and forth it sounds like they are having a conversation.  They will put the plate in April.  So I have two more months to go. Its just going to be a slow two months.  I just want to be able to exercise again.  I will find out in 2 more weeks when I can exercise again.  So hopefully I will be able too.  I really want to go back to Zumba.  I miss going to Zumba. So hopefully I will be able to go again soon.

I can Breathe again

I can finally breathe again.  I had surgery to resection my windpipe on Friday.    The surgery went very well. I am so glad to finally have this done with.  It only took one time to get the IV in this time.  Last time it 10 times to get it in. This time I drank a lot of water the day before so it would be easier to get the IV in.  Now I have one more surgery to go. I have to get the plate put in my head.  After that I am done with the surgeries.  I am so glad I am so close to being done with all of this. I cannot wait to go running again and go to Zumba.  I want to run a marathon after going through all this.  I am going to start doing the Cancer walks. I will probably be able to go home tomorrow. I have been in here since Friday.  I have enjoyed being in the hospital this time.  I still have to be on a liquid diet since I have been here. I see the speech therapist tomorrow so hopefully I will get to eat real food tomorrow.  I have been on morphine for pain but they took me off of it yesterday.  It was making me itch.  Or something was making me itch.  I am not in a lot of pain now.  It was really sore right after surgery. Now It just hurts because I have to stay at a 40 degree angle and it is getting sore from being in the same position all day and the past 2 days.  I had two IVs after the surgery.  They had to take those out last night because my veins were starting to collapse so they had to put another IV in.  The 3rd IV did not hurt because I was used to being stuck.  The anesthesiologist looked like the guy Shane from The Walking Dead.  If course when I asked him if he watched it he did not know what I was talking about.  I have really liked all the medical workers at Emory. They are all so very nice and you can tell they love their job.  But overall surgery went well. I was not nervous this time because I was ready to get it over with and be able to breathe again.  I am excited about being able to exercise again.  All I left to do is the plate and hopefully that will be sooner than later. But that is about all for now. The pain med makes me sleepy.

I Will Breathe Again!

I am starting to feel somewhat normal now.  There are some things that are little off.  But for the most part everything feels somewhat normal.  I have surgery to re section my windpipe the 21st of this month.  So hopefully I will be able to breathe again.  My breathing is the same still but its not getting any better.  And hopefully I will have the plate put in soon also.  I am going to get to volunteer at my Dad's school soon.  I can not wait.  I want to work with the special education teacher.  I really want to go into special education now.  If you would have asked me two years ago I would have been like I  will never teach special education.  But now that is what I want to teach.  Its funny how much one can change in just a couple of years.  I am glad I have changed but  I hate that it took this happening to me for me to change my perspective.   I am just getting cabin fever sitting in the house all the time.  Especially since the ice storm.  I have been iced in.  I have gotten to leave the house once since the ice storm.  I get to leave the house again today.  Nick is taking me to see movies today.  Polka Dot is sweet today.  I love the way he looks at me.  He looks at me like I am his mom.  I am glad I have my cats.  If I did not have them I would go crazy.  The cats are like people now to me.  So  I can not wait to start volunteering.  It will be good for me to be around real people.  The cats are very entertaining  to be around them a lot now.  They  chase, run, and play all day long.  Sabrina says in the T.V. room with me all day long.  The others sleep off and on during the day.  I love my cats.  They are my co-workers, class mates, and friends.  I am happy  I have complains While everyone at work.  I cannot wait till they do the surgery.  I will finally be able to breathe again.   and I cannot wait till they get the plate in.  I will finally be able to go back to school.  I am just ready to be done with school.  I finally caught up on my live text.  I have all the classes I have taken  assignments posted.  So now I just have to classes I have to take assignments to post.  I am glad to have that checked off my list.

Too Much Time

I am sorry I am late posting again.  I am going to try to post once a day but I will more than likely post at least 3  or 4 times a week more if time permits.  They are going to stretched my windpipe again Friday.  I hope this fixes this for good.  It probably wont but I can hope.  I am getting tired of not being able to breathe.  I want the plate in too. I am tired of not being able to do anything.  I feel like I am on house arrest.  I understand why my parents do not want me doing much I really do.  I just get tired of it sometimes.  I just want August to hurry up and get here.  Its just not fair that other people are out walking around doing whatever they want and my life has been put back a year.  And the worst part of it is that I have to sit around till August and do nothing but have plenty of time to dwell on all of it.  I am trying to make the best of it but its gets hard at times.  I see other people graduating, getting married and finishing school and it makes me hate my situation.  It would be different if this was my fault but its not.  If only life would be fair.  Bad things are always going to happen to good people and bad people never get what they deserve.  I am talking about rapist and murders. Why could this have happened to a rapist.  At least a rapist would have deserved it.  I guess one thing I have learned is that life is not fair anytime.  So I guess I can expect to divorce, have a child with health problems, and to become paralyzed by the time I am 40.  I have gotten some good things out of this but I do not think I needed to figured those things out.  I know now that Nick is the one.  But I did not need to go though this to learn that.  I know now what I want to do for a career.  But I think I would have figured that out while student teaching.  I am just  glad I have family and friends who are there for me.  I just wish that some people would realize that just because I am finish with therapy that I am fully healed.  But for your information I will not be totally healed for at least a year.  I am talking about the other people who think that they have so many problems but at least your life has not been put on hold and you can actually breathe.  And when the people who get cancer who smoked I have no pity for you because you did it to yourself.  At least with my breathing problem I did not bring it upon my self.  So I still have a long way to go to a full recovery.  So for all the people who think I am fully recovered I am not and will not be for a while.  I am just tired of having too much time.  One thing that people want more of is time well you can take all the extra time I have now and keep it.  Hopefully I will get to volunteer at my Dad's school soon. Well once the plate is in.  So I have something to look forward to now.  I just wish time would speed up.

The New Year

I am sorry again I have not written in a week.  The holidays are so busy.  I figured no one wanted to hear me complain about how much this all sucks.  Anyway the new year has been good so far.  I am really annoyed that I have to spend another year in school.  It really sucks.  I would be starting student teaching this week if it were not for this accident.  Now it will take me 6 years to get a four  year degree.  I guess I have a good excuse because I really do have a brain injury now.  I figure I can get my portfolio done before I go back in August.  I am going to start studying for the GACE also.  I have to take the early childhood Special ed. part of the GACE. So I figure I have plenty of time to study for it.  I am just ready to be done with all of it.  I am ready to move and start a life with Nick.  I am tired of my plans never working out.  But I guess I should be used to that by now.  So my throat is closing up again.  So I will have to get my windpipe stretched again.  They are doing something about it this week.  So I have another surgery this week.  I woke up last time at the end of it so I hope they give me enough this time.  I spend New Years Eve with my parents.  Which was a first.  We went to eat dinner and watched movies.  I want my adulthood back but that will never happen.  I am adjusting to being a kid again pretty good.  I thought I would have a harder time with it.  I just hope this year is a lot better than last year.  Last year sucked.  I just want to get better and stay that way.  I want all my health problems to go away.  I am tired of hospitals and doctors.  My goal for the year is to see Doctors less.  I want to stay as far away from hospitals too.  I have to get the plate put in so I am not including that in the hospital list.  I will probably have to get my windpipe stretched out a couple of times and then probably have to get it re sectioned later on.  I hope they will fix it with the next stretching of my windpipe.  I just hope they do not have to cut it out.  That is a four month recovery period.  So I do not want them to have to do that.  I just hope this year is better than the last.