The New Year

I am sorry again I have not written in a week.  The holidays are so busy.  I figured no one wanted to hear me complain about how much this all sucks.  Anyway the new year has been good so far.  I am really annoyed that I have to spend another year in school.  It really sucks.  I would be starting student teaching this week if it were not for this accident.  Now it will take me 6 years to get a four  year degree.  I guess I have a good excuse because I really do have a brain injury now.  I figure I can get my portfolio done before I go back in August.  I am going to start studying for the GACE also.  I have to take the early childhood Special ed. part of the GACE. So I figure I have plenty of time to study for it.  I am just ready to be done with all of it.  I am ready to move and start a life with Nick.  I am tired of my plans never working out.  But I guess I should be used to that by now.  So my throat is closing up again.  So I will have to get my windpipe stretched again.  They are doing something about it this week.  So I have another surgery this week.  I woke up last time at the end of it so I hope they give me enough this time.  I spend New Years Eve with my parents.  Which was a first.  We went to eat dinner and watched movies.  I want my adulthood back but that will never happen.  I am adjusting to being a kid again pretty good.  I thought I would have a harder time with it.  I just hope this year is a lot better than last year.  Last year sucked.  I just want to get better and stay that way.  I want all my health problems to go away.  I am tired of hospitals and doctors.  My goal for the year is to see Doctors less.  I want to stay as far away from hospitals too.  I have to get the plate put in so I am not including that in the hospital list.  I will probably have to get my windpipe stretched out a couple of times and then probably have to get it re sectioned later on.  I hope they will fix it with the next stretching of my windpipe.  I just hope they do not have to cut it out.  That is a four month recovery period.  So I do not want them to have to do that.  I just hope this year is better than the last.